Now that I know who I am

I am just about finished with the book "We are smarter than me" and not only did I really enjoy it but I believe it will stand out to me as one of those books that forever altered the course of my life. If you are starting a new company or marketing an existing one this is full of useful information about crowd sourcing. What really struck me while reading this book was the self discovery I made along the way. It was no surprise that my mind skipped around as the book unfolded. I had to check out the companies mentioned, google various new ideas and topics and in the end I found myself staring at a description and career title that finally made sense to me. For the first time ever the words 'clicked' and I was hit with the almighty 'that's it' moment. While I have tried on many titles in my life; therapist, advocate, social worker, founder, president, director, writer, visionary, none of them seamed like they described the core of my very being. They all felt more like giving names to the parts of the engine without calling it an engine. Now I have an official word title for the engine itself - Social Entrepreneur!

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This week I am moving on to “Naked Conversations” by Robert Scoble and Shel Isreal. Maybe I should have read that one before I started blogging a month ago. Life is busy you do what you can and learn as you go along. It took me 33 years to learn to who I was and what I was doing but that didn’t stop me from doing it.

Bring on the Naked Conversations! I like the sound of that since this is my life, my inner world and mind at its finest and it really cannot get more naked than that.

Today is a Jaguar day

At different times in my life I have found myself identifying with different symbols or animals in relation to ideas. When I am feeling renewed or newly inspired I often think of myself as going to through a changing process or rebirth and identify strongly with butterflies. I have also had a strong identification with eagles during times when I needed to observe myself and my situation. A strong desire to fly comes with those periods and they usually signal awakened awareness and understanding. Yet there are moments when I wish to do nothing but splash around and have a good time like the river otters. They have boundless energy and are full of excitement. My friends and family will admit I can be awful playful at times when I am not overly creative or serious.

Today however is much different. None of the usual symbols I have used in the past to describe how I was currently feeling seam to quite fit what I am feeling now. The butterfly, eagle and otter all have their place but not today. Today is much different, today feels like a jaguar day. I have never identified with the jaguar before. I would guess the reasons would include my profound discomfort with power and water, both of which have strong associations with the jaguar. Since I have conquered my fear of water and power in the very recent past and I not only feel like I could take them both on, I am jestingly looking for the challenge, stalking it, hunting it down like my next meal.


A jaguar is steady, strong and powerful. She is driven and energetic. She can be highly curious, playful and even a little sassy at times. She directs her energy with precision. I feel like I could take on the world and I just might try. If it is necessary to swim in the river to go after what I want, I have already leapt into the water. If I must acquiesce to my own strength in order to consummate my goals, I am already doing exactly that.

Today is a jaguar day for sure.